Friday, November 30, 2012

Sweet Spot + Sciatica

So the good news is that after another .5 cc’s were put back in my band 12 days ago, I seem to have found a sweet spot again that I’m enjoying. I’m actually spending more time “not hungry” than I have in a long time. It’s a nice feeling.
I actually got the fill Monday before TG…which everyone thought I was crazy. I mean, who gets a fill a few days before the biggest food holiday of the year? But I am not big on TG food…really, I’m not. However…I did go to my sister-in-law’s home in Portland for TG, and her husband makes, by far, the best TG food I’ve ever had in my life. So was it a bad idea to get a fill before TG? Well…I came back from Portland 1 lb lighter and still enjoyed a delightful meal, so I’m going to say no. Man…that food was amazing. That man can cook!

The band also helped me to keep portions small for my bonus-baby’s 4th birthday party, where I whipped up a fabulous Mexican Fiesta for her and the 20 other family members we squeezed into my tiny house. Mexican food…mmmmmm….
I’m happy to say that if I were to sit in my doctor’s office and answer the usual pre-fill questions, I finally would be able to answer them the way one would hope a bandster would:

Are you eating more than ½ to 1 cup of food at meal times? NopeAre you taking 15-30 minutes to eat your meal? YepDo you find yourself searching for food? Mostly no…some head stuff thoughAny problems with vomiting? Nope. Nada. Any acid reflux/heartburn? No wayHow much exercise are you getting per week? Screeeeaaaacchhhhh….

So…yeah…I’m having this little Sciatica problem. Holy Toledo, Batman! This stuff is no joke! I went through a round of PT right after the honeymoon and completely resolved it, till last week…now that little pain in my a** (pun intended!!!) is back! It’s a horribly obnoxious pain that starts in my right booty cheek and goes down the outside of my thigh and then wraps around to the front of my shin, stopping at the top of my foot. UGH! It’s obnoxious! When it’s at its worst I will get the spasm every couple of minutes…when it’s every couple of minutes, it takes both a physical and emotional toll on you. One should not be in that much pain consistently…it just ain’t right.
So with that, and with all the craziness of last week with kids/TG/birthdays/visiting MIL, workouts seriously got back burner-ed. Once the pain started on Friday, there was no way workouts were going to happen. I saw a doctor Monday and am learning to work within the spasm boundaries (that is to say, I now know for sure that going from sitting to standing causes them to start, so I try to stand most of the time when possible), so that last night I was actually able to get a good workout in for the first time in a week. I have an appointment with a physical medicine/spine doctor next week to see if more aggressive action needs to be taken (they are thinking it might be a bulging disk pinching the nerve). In the meantime, I’ve done enough to get the frequency of the spasms down by a LOT…like mostly just after I drive my car. I can stand at the office for long, LONG periods of time…so that’s what I’m doing. I’m also swallowing anti-inflammatories every 8 hours and Tylenol in between with a muscle relaxer at bed time and ice packs every 2 hours. Maybe all these pills are the real reason I’m not hungry???  I’m hopeful that I will get another workout in tonight. Last night I did one of my old-school HIIT sessions…I really miss those and plan on bringing them back into my rotation a lot more often.
I have noticed, though, that with pain comes emotional eating...self pitty eating, I suppose. There is less of it right now because I'm "in the zone" with the band, but the pitty eating "search" still know, where you open the cabinet looking for something comforting to eat even though you aren't at all hungry. Yeah...I shouldn't do that.
Follow up to the plastic surgeon visit a few weeks ago. As I suspected, this guy won’t do my surgery because of my spinal cord injury history. He only does day surgery out of his office and he believes I need at least one night of hospital stay. I understand his concerns…but I can’t help but be disappointed. A night in the hospital is going to double the cost for any of these surgeries. But, I now know that I would be looking at a tummy tuck with the anchor type incision but would not need muscle tightening (since I never had babies) so that will reduce the discomfort during recovery. I also need a breast reduction/lift, which he advises NOT getting done at the same time as the tummy tuck because a lot of blood flow would be needed for all the incisions and risk, of course, increases if there are multiple incision sites.
So…all that said, I now have to look for someone with hospital privileges…which is going to cost a lot more money. *sigh*…so maybe someday. Probably not any time soon.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Did I mention...

...that I have a plastics consult friday? Yeah...I do. I can't afford surgery now, by any means...but I'm curious about my options, and even if I can continue day-dreaming about affording it. I'm worried that my surgical history makes me a not-so-great candidate to do this. Better for me to find out now than to continue day dreaming only to find out later I'm not going to be allowed to do it.

I'm interested in a tummy tuck and breast lift, while also curious if there is any hope for my inner thighs, and someday I'd like to do something about my turkey neck...but the first two are the most important to me right now. My dangling tummy is never going to shrink so much so as to not dangle...and sure would be nice to have one flat tummy instead of two separate dangling tummies (one upper tummy, one lower tummy).

Alas...this is all probably for nothing...but I'd like to find out my options, and the prices, and see if it's something I can start working towards.

Scott, of course, could care less...this is all for my own vanity sake. It will be interesting to see how this consult goes.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Eek! The holidays are coming!

Well I'm several weeks post-fill now and am so glad to have that 1 oz back. I *think* it might have me at a good fill level. I'm TRYING to pay attention to the signs. The great news is that I have not had any bad pb'ing, no sticking....but I do sometimes wonder if just a skosh more would be prudent. Like I said, I'm trying to pay closer attention to my body cues and use this thing as a tool for satiation instead of a barricade for food entry.

My band, however, does not prevent me from eating bad food...that's still on me....and I ate some bad stuff a bunch of cookies made from my MIL's amazing recipe. Nobody to blame but me...but darn if it wasn't delicious!

On a positive note, this year I opted to not participate in Halloween trick-or-treaters at all because I knew that the leftover candy in my house is just impossible to resist...even when I buy stuff I don't even like. So instead of dealing with candy, I went to the gym. One holiday down...2 months of yummy holiday events to go.

Speaking of Halloween...I did dress up for a costume party. What cracks me up about this outfit is that the only thing I had to actually purchase to complete this look was the earrings...the rest I owned. I'm not sure what that says about me...

You need to see the eyes close up...I think they were a work of art, frankly:

It's hard to tell from this pic, but there is a lot of sparkle happening in the eye region! P.S....glitter kinda hurts feels like sandpaper when removing eye makeup at the end of the night. Just sayin.

Due to a financial setback, I'm back to working out on my own again. No more trainer 2 days a week. Worse yet is that my elliptical is dying a slow, painful death. As a result, I am attempting to take advantage of a YMCA membership we have so the kids can go to gymnastics once a week. I hate...HATE driving so far out of my way for my daily workout, but I'm determined to make this work. However, one issue I'm already having is that the Precor ellipticals at the Y have a different stride than my Nordic Track elliptical has at home, and as a result something bad happens to my knee every time I try to use it. A serious injury to my knee would be very bad, so I'm nervous about moving forward. My physical therapist has advised that I try to work my way up to doing the full time on the Precor instead of jumping right in with 45 minutes like I did the first night. That means trying to find something else to do that gets my heart rate up for 30-45 minutes while I work into this new stride. Given my spinal cord limitations, this might be rough...but I'll figure it out. Walking on a treadmill doesn't pump up my heart rate because I can't go that fast...but I might try to work 3 or so various machines in and see what I can make work. I still have some options at home, too...but the change is going to take a while to embrace. Stupid money...and stupid sub-optimal metabolism that doesn't allow me to eat with reckless abandon....grrrrrrr

Back to work today...I like the food and workout routine that comes with going to work. Routine is good...I apparently need routines.

I claimed this was also a halloween costume...except that I wear it all the time. Yes...I'm "Workout Girl!"