Saturday, February 26, 2011

246.8...I'm pretty happy with that

That was what my scale said this morning...246.8. OMG...what a great way to come back from a business trip!

So happy to be home from Austin. The plane ride felt twice as long as the one on the way there. It didn't help that I had a middle seat. I'm so proud to say that not only is a "seatbelt extender" no longer needed, but I also don't encroach on my neighbors space anymore. HOWEVER...the girl sitting to my right last night, who was a good 50 pounds less than me, kept elbowing me as she feverishly pecked at her calculator while doing her homework. SO ANNOYING. I kept looking to see if somehow I had spilled over into her space, but nope...she was just all up in my business. Oy...it was just a long flight.

The flight ran into dinner time, which if the NOT SO "SuperShuttle" hadn't screwed up my trip to the airport I would have drunk the protein drink I had planned. However that didn't happen...the drink had to be checked because you can't take liquids through security...cuz my protein drink is, of course, a threat to national security. Anyway, I ended up buying a cheeseburger on the plane. I took off the bottom bun (cuz the cheese glued the top part and the burger together), sliced the burger in half and then stacked it to make essentially a double cheeseburger. I then took small bites, uncertain how the bread was going to really do. I did eventually get a little "stuck", I guess you would call it, on the last bite. That last bite just crawled it's way down my throat...took about 5 minutes or so to clear. A little uncomfortable, but NOTHING like the feelings I had during that fill, so I musta just "topped off".

I'm totally proud of how much exercise I did this last week. Mark came for my workout monday morning. Tuesday I did 40 minutes on the elliptical before I left for the airport. Wednesday and Friday I did HIIT training in the hotel gym. But also on friday I walked and walked and walked around Austin. Not fast...cuz I don't do fast, but I opted to walk instead of taking a taxi between hotels. I did this Tuesday afternoon, too. That is a huge deal for me because with my disability, I have historically not wanted to walk around strange towns (crossing streets scares me because I don't move fast)...but I did it. So totally proud of myself!

I sorta wish the weather hear at home wasn't so bad...I'd love to do the walking trail at the park. I guess I'll just go out and do the elliptical instead.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Successful business trip...I can't wait to get on the scale when I get home!

Business trips for me usually amount to roughly 5 pounds of weight gain....at least half of which is surely water due to excess sodium consumption, but the other half being from "allowing" myself to eat poorly since you have no choice but to dine out for every meal.

"Choice"....interesting that I used that word. I had choices pre-band...same choices I have now. But the band makes the choosing part so much easier.

I've been in Austin for two days now. I packed 3 protein drinks in my checked bag and my workout clothes. First night I did eat out for dinner, but only after all day of "not eating" since my healthy breakfast before leaving Seattle. For that meal I had a Ham and Cheese Crepe from the only restaurant in the hotel. No sides, no desert, no beverage...just the crepe.

My hotel offers a nice variety of free breakfast food, so yesterday I had a cheese omlet for breakfast. I then went to lunch with a colleague and ordered a burger. I chose not to eat the bun (except for maybe 3 bites)and only had 5 french fries before begging the waiter to take the plate away from me. Back in my room after the conference, I opted for my protein drink for dinner with a late snack of yogurt. I also did my HIIT workout in the hotel gym...bonus!

Today I had scrambled eggs and two paper thin pieces of bacon for breakfast, a chicken caesar salad for lunch (about 2 oz's of meat, no croutons, ate only half the lettuce served) and will probably do the shake for dinner. I did also take another yogurt and two hard boiled eggs and stashed them in the fridge in my room for later. I love this hotel...seriously.

I am surrounded by munchies at the conferrence, and colleagues that want to go out for every meal, but I'm holding strong. There's even a P.F. Changs accross from my hotel...pre-band, every meal would have certainly been there! LOL

This is working EXACTLY the way I had hoped...I'm feeling full, I don't think at this point a single person can tell that I'm eating in THAT different of a way, I haven't experienced any kind of PB'ing or stuck episodes yet (I don't count the one at the fell cuz that was in a controlled environment)....so now I'm just super hopeful that this all shows on the scale when I get home this weekend. Can't wait to see for myself!!!

I can...however...wait to return to the SNOW in Seattle. Can I just change my flight to somewhere sunny? Please????

Oh, one more thing...I DID notice a "tightening" on the airplane while we were flying...similar to the slow crawl feeling I had during the fill from hell, but not as severe. I worried a little that it would carry over after I landed...but no problems! Wohoo!!!

Monday, February 21, 2011

I wanna play...

I've worked out today...cleaned my house...packed for my business trip. I have nothing left to do....so, I'll do this:



(A) Age: 37 in a couple weeks

(B) Bed Size: Queen

(C) Chore You Hate: Cleaning the bathroom

(D) Dogs? Absolutely...I have the happiest dog ever.

(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: I don't have one

(F) Favorite Color: I used to say blue...but looking at my closet, it really must be RED

(G) Gold or Silver? I wear more silver but I like gold

(H) Height: 5'4"

(I) Instruments You Play: not a thing...I wish I did.

(J) Job Title: Data Analyst

(K) Kids: Always wanted but never happened for me

(L) Live: Washington

(M) Mom's Name: Roberta

(N) Nicknames: Beckybear...My dad used to call me that.

(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? 5 weeks in 2002

(P) Pet Peeve: people who are late

(Q) Quote from a Movie: I can't think of one at all...

(R) Right or Left Handed? Right

(S) Siblings: one older Sister and one younger sister

(T) Time You Wake Up? whatever time I set the alarm for, plus about 5 hits of the snooze button

(U) Underwear: you name it, I have it

(V) Vegetable You Dislike: Most of them, sadly...I always wanted to be hypnotized to crave vegetables...I thought it would help me lose weight if I actually wanted them all the time.

(W) What Makes You Run Late: Underestimating traffic and parking situations

(X) X-Rays You've Had Done: chest, ankle, hip

(Y) Yummy Food You Make: Spaghetti and meat sauce, appetizers for parties, fruit pizza

(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Monkeys

Friday, February 18, 2011

I'm back, baby!

I just knocked out 45 minutes on my eliptical! This is pre-surgery 2002 workout levels ya'll! I feel effing fabulous!

My last workout with the trainer I didn't touch the 3 pound weights...did the whole routine with 5's and am ready to move on to 8's with a couple of the exercises...especially the bench press. Those 5's felt wimpy with that one. I'm gonna text him and tell him not to even bring the 3's anymore cuz I'm moving on up! Booya!

So happy to be in the workout groove! It's been so long since I've felt like this! LOVE IT!

I'm so excited to go to Eugene to meet some fellow band-bloggers in a couple weeks. I've gotten a sweet deal on a room in Portland and am going to make a weekend out of it with my friend Tina. Can't wait!!!


OH...and P.S....Just put on size 20 stretch jeans I had in storage. Yeah...and they zipped. I think I'm gonna wait anotheer week or two to wear them to avoid any camel toe situations, but they totally fit! (This is a Lane Bryant 20....I haven't dropped two pant sizes this week. LB always cuts generously. But I'm still happy!)

Monday, February 14, 2011

It was like the Hokey Pokey...but different...

You have 6 cc's in
You take 6 cc's out
You put 8 cc's in and you shake em all about
you do the hokey pokey and you turn yourself around

...and swallow two sips of water, discover that you can't get them down...and out comes 8 cc's!!!

Yeah...so my second fill...well...I'd say "it didn't go well", but if you spin it into the realm of "great learning experience"...I guess it wasn't so bad. I'm still here, right?

So just like I said in my cheesy song...we started off by pulling all 6 cc's out of my band that I started the day with, and then put 8 cc's back in the 11 cc band. Then Dr. H. left the room and I was left with the tech to drink my 8 ounces of water before leaving. I took my first sip and IMMEDIATELY noticed a drastic difference. It just CRAWLED down my throat...I was joking with the tech that "the old days" of chugging my water were clearly over.

Then I took the second sip...and waited...and waited...and waited....and started to notice that this was getting terribly uncomfortable. At that point I asked if I could stand up, thinking that would somehow help. It didn't. I finally got that sip down and went for the 3rd. I'm pretty sure that was the last sip attempted. After waiting about 3 minutes for it to go down, the tech said "do you want me to call the doctor back for an unfill?", to which I said yes. Another 5 minutes went by before he came in, during which I think I discovered what "sliming" feels like, as my throat started filling with mucus.

No longer able to swallow my own saliva at this point, I laid back down on the bed and Dr. H. started prepping me again for the unfill. I started breathing slow and steady, willing myself not to vomit even though all I had in me was about 3 tablespoons of water. I could not swallow ANYTHING at this point and my mouth was filling up with saliva and slime. The pressure in my chest was getting heavier and heavier. I could feel my entire body flushing. When he finally got the needle in and removed the fluid, I INSTANTLY felt relief. I was able to swallow what was in my mouth and finally everything eased up.

Wow...that was NOT fun! Thank GOD they make you swallow 8 ounces of water before letting you leave! I can't imagine what it would have been like to not discover that till later on and have to wait till the next day for an unfill!

Dr. H put 7 cc's back in the band and said that we have to take it slow from here on out. No more big fills...which is now fine with me.

After he replaced the 7 cc's I was able to drink my 8 ounces of water no problem. But the residual effects of the event lingered for the day to the point that I rescheduled my workout with the trainer for Saturday. My back is killing me and I feel like I've been through hell. I just want to lay down and rest. It's now on ME to workout on my own tomorrow and thursday to make up for today. The trainer is coming Wednesday though. I'm a little dissapointed in myself for flaking out...but I don't feel like I could give it my all.

Another 36 hours of liquids to go...I have a feeling I'm going to notice the restriction a tad bit sooner this time around.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Second fill tomorrow...

And I need it. Two weeks ago I didn't think I did, but now I know for sure I do. I am very much looking forward to this!

It's been a great weekend. Went to see David Alan Grier with friends friday, and celebrated a dear friends 40th birthday last night. I didn't get to lounge all day today as I had planned (bummer), and I didn't workout like I should have (double bummer), but all in all, a pretty fabulous weekend.

I gotta learn how to post pictures here...have some great ones from the weekend in my 24 white jeans. Very happy with how I looked! :)

I'm trying to ignore that tomorrow is yet ANOTHER Valentines day I'm spending alone...thankfully my half day of work, followed by my fill and then what is sure to be a gnarly workout with the trainer will keep my mind off my lack of romance. I am actually TALKING to someone I'm interested in right now...but we are in the early "too soon to tell" phases. In the mean time...I hope everyone has a wonderful Valentines day and you get to spend it with someone you love!

Friday, February 11, 2011

Phases of weight gain denial...

Apparently I've been in "size denial" for years and didn't really know it. I thought I was wearing a 22/24...but really I was stretching the 22/24's to fit and really should have been in a 26/28. I know this now because now that I'm down almost 50 lbs, 22/24's from JC Penny are fitting perfectly. *Sigh*....I wish smaller was fitting, but I'll take it. I'm so incredibly happy with the way I look right now...even if the size says "22/24".

Thank goodness for my clothing hoarding and the clothing swaps I've been doing with friends...or else I'd have nothing to wear. I can't afford to shop right now...but I just received a load of new-used pants from my roommate that should tide me over through the "22" portion of this weight loss phase. When summer comes, I KNOW I have some smaller summer pants waiting to be unearthed from my "some day I'll wear these again" hoards....so I should be able to get by till the fall I think.

Next fill monday. I've decided I do need it for sure. I'm just not quite there yet...getting closer, but not there.

I ate a donut yesterday...a whole maple bar without any issue at all. That just ain't right. I didn't go over my calories for the day...but it sure didn't add any nutritional value. LOL

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Already a week away from my next follow up...

Wow...time has flown. Last week I wasn't sure I would want a fill at the next appointment, but after this weekend I know I still need one for sure. Today I ate "bagel pizza bites"...like two servings...with no problem. I know I shouldn't be able to eat bread quite this easily so I do need a fill. I think the scale will indicate that for the doctor as well. But I'm still extremely pleased with where I'm at. I'm most of all pleased with my progress in getting back into working out. I wish I was at 5-6 days a week, but I'm very happy with my 3-5 that I've been consistent with. All in all, I'm in a happy place right now.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

249.8!!!!!

I've achieved my first goal! I'm below 250!!!

That means I get a manni and pedi this weekend!

That is all. :)